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First off, happy 2010!
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Wonder if anyone even reads or follows me anymore >.>”
So it has been ages since my last Journal Entry, just before I started working. If you’re curious, I have a blog at [link] which I blog on every two days or so (with a new post being overdue – I guess I’ll make a version of this).
It has been 5 long months since I’ve started working. I can’t believe it – working for 5 months in a job that I don’t really like! But strangely, I still do want to work, mainly due to economic reasons, meh.
Started working, faced a whole new set of problems. Mostly it was adaptation issues – usually I can adapt to most new situations, but even now, I’m still struggling to get in tune with the life of a working class ‘adult’. I don’t know what’s so hard about it. Get up, freshen up, go to work, then come back home? But it’s so much more complicated than that I guess. I’ll just have to soldier on. I have to be strong, not only for my own good, but for my family. I owe so much to my family for putting up with me.
It’s hard to get over something for me – the things I have done in the past were utterly unforgivable. Even now, years later, I still feel a tinge of regret. I do not deserve a place in this household. It’s much too good for me to be called a family along with them. I wonder if they realize how much of an outcast I feel amoung them. It’s easy to put up a facade, but when they’re not around I can safely drop the facade and think over things.
I have been reading the Twilight Saga (so sue me, I actually LIKE it), I’m kinda envious of Bella (except for the clumsy and whiny bitch part). Having someone to hold, physically (personally I’d go with Jacob, he’s so much cuter, not to mention he can shapeshift into a wolf. HOW FREAKING COOL IS THAT MAN) is one of the blessings that I crave for. Not just as friends, but something on a level higher than that, but I haven’t found anyone suitable yet.
Recently I was reading a friend’s blog. On it he blogged about the feelings for a girl. When I realized who he was talking about, it was like running into a brick wall. I don’t know why, but I felt a sudden rage, then an empty hole where my heart should’ve been (oh my word, I’m writing like Stephine Meyer now). I didn’t even have feelings for her – not in that way. I treated her as a sister more than anything else, so why does it feel so bad to know that fact? Maybe I have repressed feelings, unconscious thoughts that I don’t even know about. I don’t know, I seriously don’t know.
Friends, I feel as if I’m drifting apart from them. It makes me sick to know that my friends are… ‘moving on’. I don’t want to move on, not after all these years. They mean more to me than the world itself. I won’t be a martyr for them, but I’d want to protect them as much as I can, but I don’t know how anyway. I feel lonely to the depths of my soul, it’s beyond my control (kudos to anyone who realizes where this line is paraphrased from). It’s stupid really, making my friends the pillars of my life, when people have to move on, eventually.
Work, differing interests, and the passage of time are slowly breaking us apart. I’m desperately holding on to whatever fragments that remain, holding them close to me. I can’t let go, and that’s where the problem lies. Having an overly-strong sense of loyalty sucks (if you follow the Zodiacs, I’m a Leo Dragon. Double dose of pride, loyalty, stubborness and etc). What am I going to do when they move on? I don’t know, I seriously don’t. All I have to do is to hope I can make friends with others, make bonds that are more tenuous as the relationships I share with my friends now.
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Will update this tomorrow morning. /heh
So I watched Avatar, the latest movie written and produced by James Cameron.
In 3-D.
Twice.
At 12 midnight both times.
While diminishing returns suck, it was still pretty good the second time around.
It has been quite some time since anyone has seen a movie of this scale. The visuals in the movie are spectacular, amazingly detailed and immersive. The movie draws the viewer into the world of Pandora, with it’s 10-foot tall indigenous humanoids, six-legged creatures I presume to be mammals and 4-winged beasts. Cameron’s vision of Pandora – the one he waited for more than a decade is more than anyone could’ve imagined, and will most likely steal the crown of best visual effects for years to come – unless his planned sequels can top this.
Story-wise, it is a little lack-lustre. The story is simplistic at best – Outsiders invade a world for it’s resources, and beat back natives with technological superiority while the natives fight with bows and arrows. People sent to ‘learn their ways’, only to get attached to the people and eventually betray their kind. Simple story, yet Cameron tells it in such a way that kept me engaged throughout the nearly 3 hours of the show. Never once was I bored with the movie. Perhaps it was the visuals that kept me awake, I don’t know.
First time watching, I was totally sucked into the action – my heart pounded whenever the Na’vi seemed to be almost lost, I was like, OMFG YOU BASTARD when they destroyed the Hometree, and I was filled with joy when the wildlife of Pandora fought back against the humans. Never has there been a movie that made me totally ‘into it’.
The story about humans invading their homeland… the political undertones can be quite overbearing at times – ‘fight terror with terror’, and ‘shock and awe’ campaigns. Sounds familiar? Bulldozers razing through their sacred forest, doesn’t that also sound familiar? Being the easily manipulated person that I am, I couldn’t help but feel that the movie mirrors our world as it is today, displacement of natives, deforestation and wanton destruction of homes.
Mmh.
I read the negative reviews of Avatar, and most of them mentioned the political messages and jaded story were the worst parts of the movie, but I wonder – In today’s world, is it really possible to come up with something that is truly original, and not borrowing inspiration from movies past and present? Critics are getting harsher – movie-goes as well. More original stories, better character development… all that is so, so easy to say, but do people realize, even for this simple story, how hard it is to actually write for it? Mehm.
One thing is for sure though – there’s no denying the high-quality visuals, the technological breakthroughs in the cinematography industry, and the wonderful music.
Though I just wished I could’ve watched an IMAX version of it.
Well it’s Christmas. A time of cheer and celebration, but I’m just not in the mood for anything Christmassy. I admit I’m jealous of those who can relax on this day. It’s a long weekend. Long weekend of work lol. Ah well.
I still don’t feel well. I feel nauseous, breathless and dizzy. I’m starting there is a psychological factor to this as well but when I visit a doctor I just get the ‘oh he’s faking it’ look. None of the doctors I visitedreally gave the matter much thought.
Nmh. I shall treat myself to a movie later. All alone.
Now, please let me apologize in advance for typo errors, strange punctuation and other minor stuff. Typing this on my iPod touch.
So another year is drawing to a close. What have I accomplished? How have I changed, compared to the start of the year?
It’s Christmas tomorrow. It’s a time for me to reflect on things. I see many people having the freedom to do the things that they want to do, while i’d most likely to be working on that day. No parties, no gifts, not even from me to myself lol. But I guess there is one thing I can be happy about; I’m alive. I feel jealousy, betrayal, disappointment, despair. Yet I feel the warmth, the kindness and the generosity of those around me.
I really wish I could say what’s truly on my mind, but I don’t think I’m ready for that yet. It’s a big decision to make and I suppose I have to think it through first. Hopefully I still can count on my friends. Afterall, they are my friends, right?
Life now is a challenge for me. I’m a coward; to afraid to face the facts, but someday I realize that I cannot chafe certain things. I can only live through it, or call it quits and end up disappointing everyone around me. What I can do is try to make the most of the oppotunities that present themselves to me; I have just taken one of those chances. I do hope to get a positive reply, but if not, then I have at the very least tried.
Hope for the best, expect the worst. No truer words have ever been said.
Seriously, I wish I could just skip the whole process of trying to come up with a title for my blog posts -___-
Work has still been good so far! I do not dread going to work nowadays. So much better for me now. I have a quota I have to hit, but at the rate I’m going, I’m not going to hit the mark. Nevertheless I guess the experience is worth it. My back and knee hurts, but other than that, I have not much complaints (other than people leaving without buying anything even after talking so much).
So I watched 心晴大动员 today. Was so sad, almost felt like crying at several points of the show. Basically today’s episode was about this elderly couple in their 60s, and their struggles as they try and take care of their disabled children. For 30 years, they have been raising them on their own, without external help.
I really applaud them for their never-say-die attitudes. Even when they were rejected for government help, they still soldiered on and tried to make the best of their situation. Even though mentally-disabled, one of the son expressed his love for his mum – something most of us, able-bodied, mentally stable people don’t do often. He does it. Every single day. It really reflects upon our society – is showing our affection for our parents so embarrassing to us?
So they mentioned that their flat was in danger of being ‘taken back’ by HDB. Mrs Ow went to HDB to try and seek help. What did she get?
“Go find a job, you can’t always be asking for help”
While I understand that one must help himself first before seeking help, it’s not like she’s not holding a job. She has to take care of her sons, and she does have a job. I don’t know what kind of policies has with it’s welfare department, but this certainly isn’t the way to treat her. She has been slogging it out for 30 years, she’s not well-paid. Apparently she can’t rent a flat because she has already sold two flats previously. What kind of policy is this? I don’t know what is going on, but I really hope that HDB actually makes an exception in this case. It’s not like she’s selling the flats purely for personal gain.
To Mr and Mrs Ow, I salute thee for your strength in the most depressing of situations.
So I’ve been at Hougang Mall for 5 days already. Pretty okay. I’m coping much more better than previously, though I think one of my colleagues doesn’t really like me. Hmm. No matter, the rest of them are pretty friendly.
The people here are much less demanding than at Funan – perhaps because the demographic is very different. Funan being in the heart of the CBD, customers tend to be more assertive, more discerning and demanding of what they want and how they want it. While in the heartlands, they are easier to talk to, more willing to listen and less assertive, although they are still quite discerning when I recommend products to them.
I saw Ann studying 2 days ago at Hougang Mall Long Johns Silver. Was a surprise to meet her there, was supposed to bring a printer down to a customer’s car. She didn’t want to take the service lift, so I agreed to meet her at B1, but out of sheer stupidity I forgot to ask her WHERE to meet. Customer ended up going back to the store and then had my colleague to call me to arrange where to meet. xD
Ann’s stuff look so cheem oh. I will die if I see that kind of work >.>”
I have been at work. Or rather, two days.
So far it has been much better than previously. I enjoy myself more at work. Perhaps being so close to home, with everything around me so familiar is putting me at ease, I don’t know, but I’m much more relaxed now than last time. My new colleagues are easier to talk to for the most part and the range of products isn’t that big, so I’m having a slightly easier time.
Still familiarizing myself with the general layout and knowing where is what. Got that more or less covered, now it’s time to focus on how to actually sell the products so that I can meet my target. Since the store opens later, I’ve been getting a bit more sleep, having more time to myself both after and before work, since it’s only a 5 minute walk away from my home. Though on weekdays I usually end at roughly 10pm, which is ALMOST the same as I’d be previously, there is no real need for public transport, which can be really tiring for some reason. One would think that public transport would be nice, but it’s somehow draining -_-
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I wonder if anyone has had thoughts about letting our the truth. Is it considered living in denial, should you contain the truth?
I’ve always wondered that. The truth can have repercussions – like friends leaving you or ignoring you. For someone who hates to ‘lose’ friends, that is the ultimate blow he or she would have to handle, but yet, can they be considered friends if they choose to leave someone in their time of need? Or are their actions justified, since previously what was perceived by them was found to be ‘fake’?
This is the true test of friendship, I guess. Those friends who remain will probably be the ones that I’d trust for life. And for those who choose to leave, well I can’t do anything about that. Sure I’ll miss you, but life will go on, eventually, with or without you. I just wonder though, if this ‘leaving’ would be considered as selfish.
Went clubbing yesterday for the first time ever! It was more fun than I expected lah to be honest. Met a few people, said hi then nothing already -_-
My knee still hurts a bit but not as bad as yesterday. I guess hours of dancing ain’t too good for the knees.
